I know that generally when people post song lyrics on their xanga I don't read them, ever....but maybe the bolding will make this post more bitesized *shrugs* I just love these songs. I love the pictures and ideas that are captured in these words. *smiles* Excerpt from "I'm Afraid That I'm Not Supposed to Be Like This" I have risen from ashes and fed on flames
But even so I still fear I have played a game
And it seems no one else is as sick and depraved I have heard that I’m not supposed to be this way
And still the stones that are lifted fall down to stay
But I keep doubting and think one will strike my face He’s been promising me something more than pain
Where the cost is grace and my loss is gain
And I have chosen because there is no other way
I either wallow in shame
Or humble myself and be saved
And be saved Excerpt from "Lonely Sometimes" I just get lonely sometimes
I want someone to take away my grief
I just get lonely sometimes
I want to wake up in the morning with someone
Lying next to me who I can turn to for relief
I just get lonely sometimes
But I know I just need You Excerpt from "And" When my mind is muddled by the way it seems to work
I start looking for just one connecting Force
Someone to assure me that we didn’t lose the war today
That the battle’s General’s still riding on his horse In the mornings when I pray, I’ve often come to You with dreams
Little bits of power that I can’t comprehend
And sometimes I can keep my eyes unclosed for long enough
To see the blowing of a distant steady Wind The distance doesn’t take too long for You to cover it
And when You reach me, You just blow these things apart
You clear the crowd that’s gathered ‘round the crisis of my soul
And whisper to my suffocating heart Both my hands are stained with blood
And both my lips are stained with tears
From when I kissed the widow of the man I killed
And, yet You’re asking me to swallow Your forgivness here today
You say the bond required for my pardon’s been fulfilled Exceprt from "18 Bulletholes" And she isn’t always blinded, she isn’t always far astray
She just might not be thinking, she might be having a bad day
But when you choose, you choose, and when you drown, you drown Oh, God, it hurts so bad to love anybody down here
Why don’t You come and help me out?
Cause I can’t even see clear Oh, God, it hurts so bad to love anybody down here
Oh, that’s right, You know so well
One thorny crown, three nails, and a spear
"Hush" Not an excerpt When you feel like the days just drone on and on and on
And you feel like the nights are quickly gone And on the inside your heart is gaping wide
And on the inside you feel like no one’s on your side
Well, I am When you thought you could rest, but you found out you were wrong
And there’s another need another battle
Another one more thing that comes along And on the inside
You hear the fall but you hate the falling sound
And on the inside
You can’t pick another broken piece up off the ground
Well I know CHORUS Hush little baby don’t say a word
Daddy’s gone and bought you a great big heaven to rest in
He’s bought it with blood and put the seal in your heart
It’ll give you the hope you need to get up and start again When all the things you thought you left behind are still hanging on
And everything you try to do right ends up all wrong And on the inside everyone else seems basically fine
But on the inside even they won’t let go of the dead and cling to what’s alive
Well I AM Excerpt from "Circus Song" The days she has dreamed of are trickling by
she tries to find definition in the sky
and she walked so far to see as swinging lady on a tall trapeze
and she'd smile and all the movements and colors and turn and slowly leave the place behind
she wonders where her feet are now
she wonders who'd stand with her now..... The beauty of this sad story Is that this girl is really me And I remember all the things he said And how he wiped away the circus in my head…. in peace my feet rest now and it’s your hand that pulls me through somehow | 
